Sleep

Don't you just hate it when you are so stinking tired but you wake up and it is 4 in the morning and you are wide awake going why me? Lately, I can not sleep I go to sleep fine, but then my mind starts up again and I awake and begin to stare at the walls with wide open eyes? My little ones are not even the ones jumping on me saying mommy I want some juice.

My theory is I must have a lot of stress going on in my life right now. Is it me or does this economy just scare the hell out of you. I have a good job and I am pretty sure I have job security but who knows.

The stress of raising a family adds to my lack of sleep I think. It is not easy raising twin boys who have autism. I again ask myself why me. I know I am a strong person but that does not mean that I want to be all the time.

The other stress is being a wife. There is a lot of pressure in relationships of always trying to please. But, what if you are in a non pleasing mood. Do you suck it up and deal with it or do you have your way and live your life the way you want it? Food for thought.

Anyways I hope that I start sleeping again soon. I hate waking up when it is pitch black outside.